like i've said..
things are never gonna be the same..
i've apologised..
i've tried to make things go back...
but it seems tt.......
tt person is unwilling..
so wats the use holding on..
perhaps letting go will be the best for all of us...
i shall be left alone..
i wont mind..
i dun wanna burden you...
if you wanna be wid them...juz go...
i wont hold it against you
coz afterall my true quiet side have realli appeared..
be like when i was young..
i self-entertain...
wont tt be the best solution..
i wont hurt myself or anyone so much..
everytime we're hanging out as a group..
i feel...extra...
coz i onli talk to you now...
it juz makes me wanna cry..
but i noe i cant..
like wat you've have said..
i cant show the weak side of me...
so i'll hold back my tears and stand up strong..
i will be a strong kid..
that lives everyday with a wide smile..
that will be the next of me..
a pretence...
i wouldnt have to do this before....
but now... tis pretence is needed to cover my hurt...
to cover everyone's sorrows..
memories... and misunderstandings..
guess its over...
they are never interested to patch the friendship back again..
then i shall too... not be interested...
LETS ALL PRETEND......
? pretence is needed to cover the hurt
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
? no use holding on
Saturday, July 28, 2007
have not blogged for long..
ohwells..
here's wat i've tot on one of the a maths lesson
tot i should write my thoughts out
''how i wish i could tink like before
the innocent thinking that
no one will ever backstab you
the 'friends forever' phrase
how i wish...
but i guess influences and suituations
will force one to tink like wat adults tink
how i wish everyone could stay innocent and pure
FOREVER! wont it be good??
why must the world be so URGH!
well guess i cant wait to leave this world..
not by suicidial but by God's grace...
let him hurry bring me to heaven
and have eternity rest...
then i wont have to tink so much
and get hurt...
selfish thoughts=X'
friday:
darling sophia didnt come again..
haix... she is so sickly..
im a healthier kid then you:D
drink more water and rest well kkx
dun bother about me la..
i'll do well in school..
though i miss you a lot haha
didnt tok to anyone of them
well guess thats the end of our friendship?
sorri sophia... perhaps tis is not the ending we wanted
but.... i juz feel tt
THERE'S NO USE HOLDING ON...
you noe i've told you wat one of them had said right
it still hurt me alot alot alot alot till today!!
'no~ she's not my friend'
when we are a clique!!
so wat have i been to tt person??
when she fights wid the other one...
not having anyone to tok to...
she turned to me..
wat am i?! a replacement....
i hate this feeling!
being pushed around..
used onli when in need...
so why should i put up anymore pretence..
i wanna live the way i wan...
and love the people i wan...
i've cared for them, i've loved them so much...
more then i love my own brother..
but yet time and time again...
they broke my heart..
are they aware??
not until you tell them...
i've given them loads of chances...
but are they aware??
guess not if not our friendship will not have ended tis way...
its no use holding on le..
im veri tired... realli..
i juz wanna be true to myself..
and onli treat those who treat me as real friend...
dun ask me to tok to them le...
coz you noe i wont..
if they wanna tok to me...
i'll see...
but like we have said..
THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN..
really...trying to get back things straight
juz makes me get hurt and hurt again..
im not gonna cause myself anymore hurt...
thats the end...
gotta go...
hope you'll understand how i feel
thats was why i privatised tis blog..
onli allowing those who true-ly care for me
and dun tell anyone of them about this post...
or...how i feel...
thanks
ohwells..
here's wat i've tot on one of the a maths lesson
tot i should write my thoughts out
''how i wish i could tink like before
the innocent thinking that
no one will ever backstab you
the 'friends forever' phrase
how i wish...
but i guess influences and suituations
will force one to tink like wat adults tink
how i wish everyone could stay innocent and pure
FOREVER! wont it be good??
why must the world be so URGH!
well guess i cant wait to leave this world..
not by suicidial but by God's grace...
let him hurry bring me to heaven
and have eternity rest...
then i wont have to tink so much
and get hurt...
selfish thoughts=X'
friday:
darling sophia didnt come again..
haix... she is so sickly..
im a healthier kid then you:D
drink more water and rest well kkx
dun bother about me la..
i'll do well in school..
though i miss you a lot haha
didnt tok to anyone of them
well guess thats the end of our friendship?
sorri sophia... perhaps tis is not the ending we wanted
but.... i juz feel tt
THERE'S NO USE HOLDING ON...
you noe i've told you wat one of them had said right
it still hurt me alot alot alot alot till today!!
'no~ she's not my friend'
when we are a clique!!
so wat have i been to tt person??
when she fights wid the other one...
not having anyone to tok to...
she turned to me..
wat am i?! a replacement....
i hate this feeling!
being pushed around..
used onli when in need...
so why should i put up anymore pretence..
i wanna live the way i wan...
and love the people i wan...
i've cared for them, i've loved them so much...
more then i love my own brother..
but yet time and time again...
they broke my heart..
are they aware??
not until you tell them...
i've given them loads of chances...
but are they aware??
guess not if not our friendship will not have ended tis way...
its no use holding on le..
im veri tired... realli..
i juz wanna be true to myself..
and onli treat those who treat me as real friend...
dun ask me to tok to them le...
coz you noe i wont..
if they wanna tok to me...
i'll see...
but like we have said..
THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN..
really...trying to get back things straight
juz makes me get hurt and hurt again..
im not gonna cause myself anymore hurt...
thats the end...
gotta go...
hope you'll understand how i feel
thats was why i privatised tis blog..
onli allowing those who true-ly care for me
and dun tell anyone of them about this post...
or...how i feel...
thanks
? the leadership-Enthusiasm
tot i should share this...
and email on leadership:D
ENTHUSIASMQuote - ' Enthusiasm and persistence can make an average person superior. Indifference and lethargy can make a superior person average' - William Warde
You're going to love this;
Do what you love and love what you do.
Two great keys to success are love and fun.
Have fun doing what you do.
Enjoy life and see good days.
Loving your work works.
If you stop loving it and stop having fun doing it, it'll drag.
You could change it so you love it again.
You could change your attitude so you have fun again.
You could take a break and get fresh ideas for it.
Whatever it takes, get fired up about what you do!
Passionate people change the world.
Stepping out with you,
PHIL PRINGLES
and email on leadership:D
ENTHUSIASMQuote - ' Enthusiasm and persistence can make an average person superior. Indifference and lethargy can make a superior person average' - William Warde
You're going to love this;
Do what you love and love what you do.
Two great keys to success are love and fun.
Have fun doing what you do.
Enjoy life and see good days.
Loving your work works.
If you stop loving it and stop having fun doing it, it'll drag.
You could change it so you love it again.
You could change your attitude so you have fun again.
You could take a break and get fresh ideas for it.
Whatever it takes, get fired up about what you do!
Passionate people change the world.
Stepping out with you,
PHIL PRINGLES
? privatised!
Thursday, July 26, 2007
well now my blog is officially private!!
soooooo...
wanna read tell me i'll consider...
**sorri to most i have not invited you..
coz i cant seem to find ur email add=X
soooooo...
wanna read tell me i'll consider...
**sorri to most i have not invited you..
coz i cant seem to find ur email add=X
?
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
keeping thoughts to myself..=X
dun feel like blogging
dun feel like blogging
? pretence
Monday, July 23, 2007
rahhhhs
im sick of tired of all pretence..
haix... perhaps we're juz not one...
forget it...
im tired realli tired..
STOP PRETENDING!!!
things will nvr be the same..
get it... NEVER!
haix forget it...
im sick of tired of all pretence..
haix... perhaps we're juz not one...
forget it...
im tired realli tired..
STOP PRETENDING!!!
things will nvr be the same..
get it... NEVER!
haix forget it...
? funs!
Saturday, July 21, 2007
back!!
tis is my 100th faithful?? post to the blog!!!
kkx...details abt my life..
thursday:
had school as usual
but was racial harmony celebration!
so....wore SARI!
hahahahahaahahahaha
hahahahahaahahahaha
the few of us!
full body pic..
tts the highlights of the day
friday:
schooled as usual...
then went to yanger's house for cell
and celebrated she and chee tuan's birthday!
the siblings!
yanger,chee tuan[uncle tuan!],eugene
cutting the cake
tts all then came home!
haha
saturday:
study day cum HUO GUO DAY!
on the way me and sophia saw tis!!!!! wheeeees
haha we had huo guo in the kitchen~
hahahaha funs!
hahahaha funs!
our food!!! but....
THATS NOT ALL TADA!!
two retards drinking soup??
tts stretchy for you.futre wife'd name STRETCHER!
YAM SENG! we cant see cheryl's face
and again her face
on the way to sending me and sophia to the bus stop
haha yet another fun day today
haha yippppes!:D
kkx gtg...IM SLEEPY!
byebye
? something's wrong
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Something's wrong again
Three answers most scared by men
(Whatever)
Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday eat Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... then I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..
(Anything)
Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching a movie? Long time we havn't watch a movie
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only
Men: How about we go bowling?
Women: Exercise on such hot day? You not feel tired meh?
Men: Then find a café and have a drink
Women: Drinking coffee will affect my sleep
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything
(You decide)
Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let's take a bus
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take taxi then
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: How to walk with empty stomach?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anything
============================================
Noticed something very funny about the things above?
There's something just not right about the sentence.
No??? Scroll back up and read more carefully.
Noticed it? If yes, good for you.
No?? Then let me tell you this.
Seen someone bowl before in the hot sun?
Three answers most scared by men
(Whatever)
Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever..
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face
Men: Alright, why not we have Si Chuan cuisine
Women: Yesterday eat Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm..... then I suggest we have seafood
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever..
(Anything)
Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching a movie? Long time we havn't watch a movie
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only
Men: How about we go bowling?
Women: Exercise on such hot day? You not feel tired meh?
Men: Then find a café and have a drink
Women: Drinking coffee will affect my sleep
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything
(You decide)
Men: Then we just go home lo
Women: You decide
Men: Let's take a bus
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la
Men: Ok we will take taxi then
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk
Women: How to walk with empty stomach?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anything
============================================
Noticed something very funny about the things above?
There's something just not right about the sentence.
No??? Scroll back up and read more carefully.
Noticed it? If yes, good for you.
No?? Then let me tell you this.
Seen someone bowl before in the hot sun?
? neoprints
HERE'S THE NEOPRINTS PROMISED!!
wheeees haha
get the one tt fits ur blog better haha:D
wheeees haha
get the one tt fits ur blog better haha:D
? a day of fun!
Sunday, July 15, 2007
back!!
today is super fun! hahahaha!!
john. and sophia candid shot again!
today is super fun! hahahaha!!
woke up early in the morning..
prepared and when to meet sophia..
mrt-ed down to jurong east..
on the jourey i was playing QUADRAPOP!
finally i've reached 500k! wahahaha
finally i've reached 500k! wahahaha
juowi see i did it!! hahahaah:P
anyways... camwhored wid sophia..as usual..
while waiting for the rest..
in the end onli me,sophia,cheryl,ros,ronney,juowi skated..
the two old ones.. like wat ros said
NEED MORE REST!!
haha had fun skating...though fell on my tummy..
rahhhs was pain la... but after tt kkx le
haha then cheryl had to laugh at ros when she fell..
so... ROS MADE HER FALL!
me and ros were partners in crime..
making everyone fall! haha
in the end we also fell-_-''
ohwells fun overall..
pics:
hahahaha explains all!
it was snowing at singapore haha
it was snowing at singapore haha
me.cheryl.ros.sophia
small eyes rocks kkx RO-SAI-LIN!!
who's tt? wahahaha
nice pic... they were trying to imitate??
THIS!! rather successful
in the 'snow' again
the machine tt rejects money
after tt we went to take neoprints..
coz we wanted a neoprint tts...
well we all NOE! hahah
anyway we saw one of the poster..
COME ON!COME ON LETS FLASH!
hahaha we ended wearing our jackets on..
and flash! hahaha lame things we can do!! wahhahaha
but we didnt take the pic in the end haha
then designing it was FUN!!
then designing it was FUN!!
HAHA MANY COMMENTS GIVEN..
many funny pics being dragged in wahaha
after tt mrt-ed to douby ghaut..
met john.,peijun and weiting haha
went movie-ing at plaza singapura!
haha HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF PHOENIX...
not veri fantastic... the part when both of them kiss.
was... so ANTI-CLIMAX...so out of no where....
some parts are rather funny..
esp tt part wid the weasley twins! wheees
i dun like umbridge...
i dun like umbridge...
she reminds me of.... DAISY TAN
wahahaha i feel so mean...ohwells
thats me...haix...
after tt we had dinner..
haha wats was our menu??
ronney and juowi left for their bbq
me,sophia,john.,peijun had bk
cheryl,ros,weiting had 500g longan,sushis and apple juice...
haha they are always up to mad stuffs...
get used to it can le! hahahaha
pics:
our two old ladies! peijun and weiting!!
rosalind and cheryl!! haha candid shot
our two old ladies! peijun and weiting!!
rosalind and cheryl!! haha candid shot
john. and sophia candid shot again!
after tt sophia and her bro went home..
the rest of us went to starbucks to slack haha
funny things we do and tok about..
many discussion...many new lame ideas...
hahahaha LOVES!
like wat i saw from sophia's blog!
like wat ros said...
its a miracle our relationship can be so close..
though the camp was such a short period
yea...agrees...
OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL LAST:D
thanks for all the fun days i've got haha
? words to sec threes
Friday, July 13, 2007
well...
guess many are like unhappy wid their post?
i dunno...im tired..
sec threes..my word to your..
watever positions ur got..
happy not happy...
i dun wanna noe already im tired..
first time a POP is so TIRING TO ME!!
why cant ur juz accept fate...
i mean... well tts the world..
since ur got god noes wat position..
do to the best of ur ability!!
coz in the end...
ur target is to bring sac sjab to a greater level of success..
and not have competition and CRUMBLE THIS CCA..
if ur wanna continue like tt..
I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY....
doubt ur even read here...
guess many are like unhappy wid their post?
i dunno...im tired..
sec threes..my word to your..
watever positions ur got..
happy not happy...
i dun wanna noe already im tired..
first time a POP is so TIRING TO ME!!
why cant ur juz accept fate...
i mean... well tts the world..
since ur got god noes wat position..
do to the best of ur ability!!
coz in the end...
ur target is to bring sac sjab to a greater level of success..
and not have competition and CRUMBLE THIS CCA..
if ur wanna continue like tt..
I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY....
doubt ur even read here...
? POP
today was passing out parade..
well wats should i say..
happy?sad?
i dunno..
but i wanna thank everyone!!
sec ones... for being good juniors
sec twos for the flowers!
sec threes for the bbq,today and the pressie
I NOE UR SPENT A BOMB!!:D
sec fours for being good mates and giving me precious memories to be kept close to my heart!!
LOVES! im gonna miss sjab..
anyway many got doubles...
IM ONE OF THEM WHEEEES
gonna upload the pictures SOON!
yippes tml is outing day!
ice skatings... movie-ing...tokin!!
i miss everyone
kkx gtg:D
tata~
awards to US for LONG SERVICES! haha
well wats should i say..
happy?sad?
i dunno..
but i wanna thank everyone!!
sec ones... for being good juniors
sec twos for the flowers!
sec threes for the bbq,today and the pressie
I NOE UR SPENT A BOMB!!:D
sec fours for being good mates and giving me precious memories to be kept close to my heart!!
LOVES! im gonna miss sjab..
anyway many got doubles...
IM ONE OF THEM WHEEEES
gonna upload the pictures SOON!
yippes tml is outing day!
ice skatings... movie-ing...tokin!!
i miss everyone
kkx gtg:D
tata~
pictures:
preparing to go down!!
awards to US for LONG SERVICES! haha
the ranks~
chris aka ex-dcsm taking pics!
speech before FOOD! tts ex-csm amelia!
our BIG cake for POP haha
? fever!!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
halo everyone!! 
im officially sick.
was down wid a fever to 38.1!! rahhhhs
it SUCKS to be sick...
feels like someone has put you on the torturing stage
and TORTURE YOU! wid backaches
make you spin rounds so you feel nausea
put you over the fire to make you run a temperature
kkx shut up..
picture blogging time!!wheeees
where should i start from??
hmmmms
YOUTH DAY=STUDYING DAY!
preeeeeesenting weiting!!
her unglamness too!!
rosalind!!
juowi and ronney!!
sophia!!
juowi and ronney!!
sophia!!
cheryl!!
and the angelic lollipop!! *CLAPS
all the hardworking-ness haha!
kkx now its the pigging pictures!.
me and cheryl ate alot... wahahahahahah
27 plates in all!!
tts all for tt day...
now its time for...
BBQ ON FRIDAY!
me,amelia and chris!
well onli one picture is on...:D
now its SJI'S AP on saturday
sjab contigent haha....
their csm leading!! guess who?!
told you we are gonna put up ur unglam photo...
anyone who wants it GRAB IT!!
can go blackmail him anytime!!
he told me and sophia to bring it on!!! wahahahahaha
happen tt the national flag was flown past...
happen tt the national flag was flown past...
BUY ONE GET ONE FREE!! WAHAHAHAHAHA
last but not least...
the flag barriers!!
well at the end they had the flag lowering ceremony..
the song is like DAMN saddening...haix..
to tink im gonna past out soon...
'its the end...its over...''
both school's ncos are gonna pass out on...
FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN
haix...lost of words...
anyway congrats to all josephians tt the AP was a success!
ur did a great job...
guess those rehearsals have paid off...:D
after tt we took bus to the mrt...
and started cam-whoring!!
fine $50000000 for taking lame pictures!
my leggy was tired haha
usual us!hahahahahaha
suck in and smile widely
im soo tall tt i can take from tt height...
im soo tall tt i can take from tt height...
wheeeees
being lame as again
in the mrt...
