yipppes!!
chinese writtens are OVER!!
haha but im scared...
i screwed one question...
you noe the 前者后者 question..
sobs... i put as 前辈和后代！
how dumb can i get rahhhhs!
hope the others are alritex:D
embarrassing!! my stupid confirmation slip had to FLY!
omg... when the teacher announce my name
was damn paiseh can...
the whole hall of people lookin at me walk up to take my slip..
almost fainted! rahhhs...
anyway after papers went to eat
BAN MIAN! full!!!!
rahhhs almost could not walk home
had to roll home if i couldnt haha
yapx morning cute sophia help me buy macs breakfast..
so sorry... i spilled your tea~
next time treat you something kkx;)
suddenly i feel like reflecting!!
omg..eileen is reflecting here!!! ohwells..
im being open about life!
many many things have happened tis past months..
can say six months its juz few days away..

[[all in my opinions]]
1.things are going at top speed!
2.im glad to give up...
3.i have not been a good friend
4.my studies are still NOT fantastic enough to take o level and PASS!
5.i havent been a faithful christian
6.i wanna hurry pass out=X
7.i need to save money!
8.need to go on SERIOUS diet....

1.time juz flies so fast...
haix first it was chinese new year..
easter and wat... its JUNE!
and my hotdate for tis holiday will be...
MY BOOKS!omg..
i wanna die... rahhhs..
i dun wan Os...can i juz skip it..
will be having loads of lessons goin tis hols..
there's ss,lit,bio,phy,e maths
and i've sign up for the lessons geog,phy,e maths..
aaron teaching us e maths...
you see how intense im goin for e maths!!
coz i cant afford to fail it ANYMORE!!
rahhs.. i got freaking F9 for it...
so im gonna kill it!! im not letting it kill me!
e maths i have a battle wid you muahahaahah
kkx i sound damn lame...
i'll have a rough idea for you to see my deadly schedule..

2. rather touched too moose!
hahah im realli feel much more...
relaxed... at least now i can concentrate on my studies
and not on her anymore:D haha
gladglad!
if i see her around i'll treat her like any other..
no more feelings...
after so much things that have happen...
i've realli come to my senses:D
thanks everyone who have been knocking it into me!

3. i guess i havent realli done my part as a fren..
or perhaps a godsis..
to godsis:D-
heys... i noe many things have been bothering you..
or are still bothering you...
i noe its easy for me to tell you
''hey wateva it is i can still lend a listening ear''
but how many times... we actually wan a listening ear..
all we want is a good advice...
well i guess im juz not good wid words...
but i'll try my best to give advices when i tink its appropriate
however juz a hope.... that you will be able to open up more..
must not be me can be moose,zz or clarisa.. or anyone..
because having someone to share your burden
realli lightens the loads...
to zz:D-
haha i noe i have been pissing you off
ever since we sit next to each other...
but do hope you will understand ah pek old le..
cannot multi task...=X
things that i say may not come out rite at times..
so dun be angry kkx...
ah pek needs alot of forgiveness:)
to moose:D-
haha my ah pek gang leader!! wheees...
i dunno if i have made you angry b4..
if i did im veri sorri kkx...
and i will learn to multi task de..
ICANDOIT!!
to others:D-to many many out there...
i have not been meetin your out...
we'll go out after i conquer my Os kkx!

4.now my second greatest worry is O level!
RAHHHS i dun wan o level..
i mean my grades...
how fantastic can they get...
F9s now.. at tis point of time..
i should be at least getting Cs!
haix... i have to jiayou for so many!
eng,e maths,phy,ss,p.lit and not neglecting those i pass
rahhhs i wanna faint! haix...
doubt i can ever make to tp..
i guess even ite doesnt want me..
sobx... i'll be a school dropout:(

5. well honestly...
i juz feel that i havent been a faithful one..
have not been attending cg or service
for a reason or another...
im juz tired...veri tired...
i feel tt goin to church is a burden=X
i feel God doesnt exsist..
well maybe as fellow christians...
your will start preaching one whole chunck..
but i dun feel His presence get it..
after one year plus in the church..
i dun even noe how does it feel like to have His presence..
how to pray properly everyday
well you might say go for bs..
SO WAT! i mean bs doesnt help increase faith..
well to me i juz dunno...
i dun feel like goin to church anymore..
i dread going every week...
coz i cant commit such faith to Him like i used to...
im not worthy of Him
i dunno why...
read for all you wan but dun come asking me why
i wont answer you...
perhaps... my actual reason for goin there is gone..
so going there is pointless...
perhaps i have not give my heart fully to Him from the start..
im cant be faithful anymore

6. well maybe tis is somthing i senior should be thinkin..
but considering my studies as a factor...
i'll rather give up the cca..
well i mean i will miss all of you...
those sweet,harsh,irritating,happy memories...
that each one of you have given to me..
i will remember it forever...
but life have to move on..
tis is the cruel reality...

7. i havent been saving money successfully..
haix.. i save tis week and spend the other week..
rahhhs i need to save save save mum is the best haha
lame... realli need to SAVE...
well during tis period of dieting..
guess i'll be able to save more money and
revive my poor lil bank account..
its hanging around wid small amount of money inside
haix... dun worry mummy will feed you soon! haha

8. yes i need to diet!!
rahhhs successfully diet-ed 4 kg!!
on my way to the nearest ten..
NOT disclosing my weight coz..
IM TOO HEAVY! rahhhs...
i wanna be thinner..
well the reason is...
its better for health!
omg.. imagine me not cutting down on the snacks..
by the age of 20 i'll the gigantic...
and wid heart problems... blabla..
by that time slimming down will be impossible..
to make use of now when its still possible:D
wahahhaahah! im mad~

kkx thats all for eileen's reflecting of the past six months:D
bye! hahahahahaahahahhahaahah