have not blogged for long..
ohwells..

here's wat i've tot on one of the a maths lesson
tot i should write my thoughts out
''how i wish i could tink like before
the innocent thinking that
no one will ever backstab you
the 'friends forever' phrase
how i wish...
but i guess influences and suituations
will force one to tink like wat adults tink
how i wish everyone could stay innocent and pure
FOREVER! wont it be good??
why must the world be so URGH!
well guess i cant wait to leave this world..
not by suicidial but by God's grace...
let him hurry bring me to heaven
and have eternity rest...
then i wont have to tink so much
and get hurt...
selfish thoughts=X'

friday:
darling sophia didnt come again..
haix... she is so sickly..
im a healthier kid then you:D
drink more water and rest well kkx
dun bother about me la..
i'll do well in school..
though i miss you a lot haha
didnt tok to anyone of them
well guess thats the end of our friendship?
sorri sophia... perhaps tis is not the ending we wanted
but.... i juz feel tt
THERE'S NO USE HOLDING ON...
you noe i've told you wat one of them had said right
it still hurt me alot alot alot alot till today!!
'no~ she's not my friend'
when we are a clique!!
so wat have i been to tt person??
when she fights wid the other one...
not having anyone to tok to...
she turned to me..
wat am i?! a replacement....
i hate this feeling!
being pushed around..
used onli when in need...
so why should i put up anymore pretence..
i wanna live the way i wan...
and love the people i wan...
i've cared for them, i've loved them so much...
more then i love my own brother..
but yet time and time again...
they broke my heart..
are they aware??
not until you tell them...
i've given them loads of chances...
but are they aware??
guess not if not our friendship will not have ended tis way...
its no use holding on le..
im veri tired... realli..
i juz wanna be true to myself..
and onli treat those who treat me as real friend...
dun ask me to tok to them le...
coz you noe i wont..
if they wanna tok to me...
i'll see...
but like we have said..
THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN..
really...trying to get back things straight
juz makes me get hurt and hurt again..
im not gonna cause myself anymore hurt...
thats the end...

gotta go...
hope you'll understand how i feel
thats was why i privatised tis blog..
onli allowing those who true-ly care for me
and dun tell anyone of them about this post...
or...how i feel...
thanks