yet another project over,AGI.
it marks the end of OTC.
wells loads of feelings
how much i want otc to be over, yet not
coz its realli tiring esp those sundays
however i realli love the time spend with hotel
and oso other people in the course.
the times we supported one another,
had fun together ohwells.
there will still be POC.
another performance to prepare yea
so hotel will have to meet up again
with qingjun too haha
celine have flew away!

anyway quite sad cannot go flyer wid them
coz if AGI. havent been on wid going out wid them
due to the many things, that are up
sorry ya.

and its juz 2 more weeks!
but thinking to myself
so what if i've survived the two weeks
so what if the posting is a pass
is this reali what i want for all my life
its a decision to make
a dilemma.
i dun want to disappoint my parents to be a PHD
yet,i dun wanna regret all my like.
i can see the difference when you have passion in something.
you will make extra effort,go the extra mile for it
but if you dont, you dont give a damn.
i dunno,im hating life more.
thought all this will be fine,will be over
once im out to posting i'll love this profession
total crap.
ytd someone was saying the speech,
'and the nursing cadets can benefit and get ready to embark in a nursing carrer'
like er....
i've been trying my best.giving the best care i can
communicating with them to brighten their day,to let them not fear procedures
but people are making me hate it.
makes me seem like my efforts are juz crap.
to be kept in the room onli
coz all they see is what you are doing outside those closed doors.
AND I FUCKING HATE IT.
fadilah told me its like this being a student have to humble
kkx right humble.
but being humble means when i get scolded i'll juz sit down there like a dog
and nod and say its my fault when its not..
dun be crap.
wanting us to be innocent
cant be anymore,the society have made us need to change
to protect ourselves from harm.
i dunno. someone tell me if i should carry on?
ps.whatever written here remains HERE.!
and i hope this privacy will be respected.

all i want is a shoulder to cry on now