haix rather down.
see-ing god grandpa suffering like that:(
at such age still going for ops
chemo is in consideration now...
i really dunno.
on one hand, i want him to go to get better.
on the other, i dun want to see him suffer.
after all if he cant take it,he will just be with the Lord anytime.
today went to see him.
he have the tube inserted into his throat,drips and restrainers..
it really aches my heart.
ok,dun take it wrongly...
restrainers are there because he keeps on pulling the drips and all out.
and keeps on wanting to get out of the bed...
he wanted to talk, but due to the tubing.. he could not.
just like what grandma went through:'(
could see he seems frustrated..
so all we could do was talk by his ear, hold his hand and give him the least comfort.
from my last attachement, i realised greatly..
just by staying with the patient,holding the hands...
its does alot alot alot....
why didnt i learnt all this faster, so i could help grandma..
help her ease the pain..
she was going through...
i love all of you,takecare!

his SPO2 was alright.
his heart rate it fluctuates...
from 70,8o to 90,100...
i took the rythm it's not consistant.
but it's still strong.
im worried, very worried.

just tot i wanna include a little prayer.
Dear God, please do takecare of god grandpa.
minimize his sufferings.
if it's his time, do take him home to be with you.
at least i know he will be happy to be with you.
and also god grandma.