i wanna have this post to really vent it out to you.
things i have been keeping silent about.
this post wouldnt have came to me, if i didnt cry big time ytd.
anyway thanks to DC girls and boys who were there to cheer me up, really love your to bits!

im really disappointed in you, your words and actions.
they are just used to put up a show.
you know from the start i didnt like boyfriend-oriented girl friends, you made this point of mine even stronger.
in sec 3 we were close, we talked till you sleep on me or we both hanged up the phone.
then came, your then bf, jw. and so attention was drawn to him.
we had lesser talks at night....
after your broke up, you needed someone to talk to. i was there. to listen.
then in sec 4 came edric, history repeated itself. i was there again to listen.
we promised to keep in touch after sec school no matter what.
i tried my best. most of the time you're not free becoz you have work and family matters.
so i was fine with it, coz i know how your mother is.
i tried to accomodate most of the time.
then came poly, less then a month you got attached to edmond.
our contact was so minimal, we were both busy with school etc.
even when you broke up with him, i got to know it only TWO weeks after the incident.
and you call me your god-sister.
after that you got ur current eric, you asked me if i mind he is 27.
i really dun understand you. it's your love with him, what does it has to do with me?!
our contact with each other really went pit bottom...
tt time i tweet about me not liking bf-oriented friends, i was talking abt my polymate!
but you bbm-ed me... asking am i talking about you.
if you felt it, then you shld really reflect and do smth to salvage the friendship...
BUT INSTEAD YOU FUCKING DIDNT DO ANYTHING.
you wanted an outing for both of us on one sat...you said we shall have it the 2 weeks later sat.
and when we were nearing the date like thurs or fri...
you didnt even bother to ask abt the outing. if you did ask, i would really have consider going out if you. you didnt, you carried on with you life.
but anyway thank god, i had G and ZZ to accompany me.
you know, all this i can tolerate. i can.
you know me, if i really love you as friend,no matter what ridiculous thing you do or say, i can tolerate it.
after so many things that have been happening, which i dun need to elaborate, you know it yourself.
the last straw came when i asked you if you wanna go timbre with me and esther.
FYI, YOUR FRIEND HERE IS A NURSE TO BE.
how can you actually say your grandma has eye appt at night! if it's true the doctor is crazy i swear. old people normally prefer day appts becoz of transport and also due to their poor eyesight. and i rmb ur grandma got an eye op just recently, obviously it will be a follow up at the hosp. outpatient clinic. and their clinics dun open until so late.
you dun wanna go, just say it. you didnt have to lie to me.

seriously, i dun need a friend like you anymore. you will only cause me more hurt. i should have let go long time ago.
anyway i did have good times with you in sec school. those memories are good enough for me alr. now we are fitted nicely into our social life, it shall remain the way it is now.